Sending positive vibes
thank friend, my brain could use em ._.
I’ve always felt very lonely
I know I have family and friends that love me. It’s not that I lack a support system. I know very well that I have people who love me. I’m not alone, I’m just lonely.
I’ve always been lonely in the romantic sense. I’ve always wanted to experience the kind of…
Headcanon that Natasha Romanoff is a massive weeb that has a closet full of wall-scrolls and kigus. And that people think she learned Japanese from part of her spy training when really she learned it watching Sailor Moon.
Barton-san, I’ve been compromised~
YOU’RE KILLING MEEEEEE hahahaha
Hill-senpai, notice meeeee~~~
The funny thing is, I had this headcanon that at Avengers Tower Natasha would work out with headphones plugged into the AI system or whatever, and she’s just shadow boxing and everyone always imagines that she’s listening to something hardcore, or an audiobook maybe, but when someone accidentally unplugs the headphones Girls Generation and 4Minute and Wonder Girls and stuff blare out. Natasha works out to K-Pop, and they all think it’s hilarious, except Clint, who already knew, and Steve and Thor, who have no idea what it is anyway (but they enjoy it once they hear it), and then soon everyone is working out to K-Pop music.
…..This is actually my running playlist..
oh gOD IT’S GETTING NOTES AGAIN I THOUGHT I WAS SAFE
real talk though, i feel like i’ve wasted so much fucking effort going to the gym. I started when I was 18, why? Because I thought it’d help me get a girlfriend/I wanted to make my ex regret dumping me or some dumb petty bullshit. But you know what? Since then, it’s actually been harder to meet someone and each time I do the relationships get progressively shorter. Like christ my longest-lasting relationship was when I was out of shape and had zero muscle mass. And it’s not like it makes me feel that much better about myself, I’m still just as insecure about 12% body fat as I was about 30-40%, and my face still bothers me. So what the hell is even the point of all this weightlifting if it hasn’t really helped me get to a happier place?
4 years of going to the gym and getting in hella good shape has honestly done like zilch for my self-esteem and body image issues so every so often I contemplate just not going and getting fat again because hey I can just eat everything I like all the time and not spend $60 month on a gym membership.